I’ve been thinking about this post a lot lately because it’s made me who I am. I am proud to have gone through the things I have.  I wouldn’t be the person I am today if I hadn’t have gone through these things.


Let’s go back a few years

I realised something a few days ago that’s taken me over 15 years to realise. When I was 15 I had a major operation on my spine.  The complication during that operation caused them to have to use the defibrillator on me, twice. They said at the time that my body forgot how to react, belittling the fact that I actually died.  I brushed this off as nothing at the time.  It didn’t bother me because I had gone through several years of hell at school at that point and I didn’t care what happened to me.  I know that sounds terrible now, but it was how I felt at the time.   I haven’t actually told anybody that I felt that way, until now.


Why am I telling you this?

The reason for this story? I know now that it wasn’t my time, I was put on this earth for a reason, just like we all are. I was meant to change people’s lives, to help people and do something amazing. It’s these experiences in my life that have made me who I am and it’s no mistake that I’m having the experiences that I am now. What I learnt from that experience is that if I survived that, I can survive anything.  I went through years of pain and come out of it the other side a better person for having that experience.

Take comfort in the fact that your experiences don’t last forever, they are temporary and they are shaping who you are and they will teach something that will help you in your future. I know it isn’t easy at the time to hear these things, but I wouldn’t change anything I have been through because I wouldn’t be here now if I did.

Thank you for reading

Love and light

Sarah Tilsley